“It’s weird!” is the only phase to describe the past few weeks of my life.
I’m looking around and my high school crush is engaged. The guy who said he just wanted to be friends and doesn’t want to be in a relationship is now married. People are planning weddings and having babies left and right. And then there’s me. Somewhere in middle, just witnessing it all.
I’m at a weird point in my life because although I am making changes to get to where I want to be in life, I’m not yet where I want to be in life. My forever person turned into Casper the Ghost and I certainly hope I can figure out what my forever career is in the next few years.
But none of that is guaranteed. So I’m trying to relearn how to simultaneously accept where I am today while striving for a better tomorrow. It’s an odd feeling. I keep second guessing myself. I keep asking myself if I should be doing more.
In the past week, I’ve been in 3 states on opposites sides of the country. My body has no idea what time it is. I feel like I’ve been sleeping forever, only to wake up tired.
This is all because I recently relocated to Boston to attend graduate school and took a quick trip to San Francisco! I am looking forward to continuing to chase my dreams! Though my passions are quite multifaceted, I am always looking for ways to incorporate my interests in healthy food, fitness, and wellness into my professional and grad student lives.
Moving is never easy. I left a city I never thought I would leave. As many times as I got stuck in the subway or was splashed with river water/sewage during my runs, I’m missing New York!
I know I’m missing New York because I’ve come to know it so well. People come and go, but New York never left. My favorite running trails and yoga studios are still there, existing without me.
And that’s the thing. No matter where you are or what you’re doing, life goes on. And it’s best that you go on with it.
I’m trying to establish myself again in a new city. I have no idea where to go to do the things I like to do and eat the things I like to eat, but I’m trying. I’m determined to find the spaces and places that bring me joy.
I’m also doing all this on a student-budget, which is a change for me to say the least. My meals are about to become simpler and faster, while still as nutritious. It’s going to be hard for me to put a limit on my $4 cortados, but I know that it just doesn’t make sense at this point.
I feel like I’m going back to the basics, but I look forward to getting in touch with seasonal ingredients and budget-friendly options again.
As for racing in Boston, I’m still undecided. For longer than I can remember, I looked at Boston as the second most spirited running city (New York is #1 in my book) and couldn’t wait for the opportunity to race in Boston. Now that I’m trying to handle my looming running injuries and get back to running just for running, I don’t know when or if I’ll be racing anytime soon. Either way, I’m ready to see what this city has to offer!