BBG Week 7: I Promise, I’m Trying

I can’t figure out what’s more challenging: keeping up with workouts while traveling or keeping up with workouts following traveling. This week, I tried. I tried to be a good friend, daughter, sister, and teammate. I tried to be there for everyone who needed me even though I was exhausted. As a result, I was there for everyone but myself. I went to SweetGreen three times in five days because the thought of cooking overwhelmed me and I was in dire need of vegetables. I don’t think I slept more than 5-6 hours a night, and if I did, it wasn’t without interruption.

It would’ve been really easy for me to take a break from BBG this week. Instead, I did the exact opposite. I buckled down and gave my workouts all that I had. I figured that even if I was tired, I was still awake. And as long as I was awake and in the gym, I was going to push myself. Despite all of the early mornings and late nights, I got in two additional yoga sessions this week. Although I do use my traditional workouts to destress, yoga is where I go to practice mindfulness and work on my breathing. These additional yoga sessions centered me in the midst of a chaotic week.

I was so excited on Friday because I was able to go home and relax instead of running to the nearest airport. I made no plans for Saturday except for yoga class in the evening. I took my time settling in on Friday, watched my favorite movie, and slept in. When I woke up on Saturday, I knew that I had one more workout to go before I could truly celebrate the end of week 7: cardio. Since it was nice and sunny out, I decided to slather on some sunblock and go for a run.

Typically when I go for a run outside, I set an objective. I map out my route beforehand and decide on my mileage and goal pace. Today, I tried something different. I set no goals, other than to enjoy my run. I selected a course that I know well, so I wasn’t too worried about how far I would go since I wouldn’t get lost. I brought my headphones with me but I turned off my running app. I didn’t want to hear my average pace and current time chiming in my ear every 10 minutes or so. I just wanted to go.

So I went. I enjoyed the warmth and sunshine that I haven’t experienced in months. I played all my favorite songs and didn’t think about negative splits or steps per minute. I may have run through a few tourists’ photos, but I felt good! Really good. Better than I had felt in a long time. When I finished my run, I did my cool down stretches and treated myself to an iced coffee with coconut milk.

I have a competitive spirit, but I am learning that sometimes it’s good to just be out there. I spent most of last year training for races, so it feels weird to me to be exercising without a landmark event in mind. I didn’t believe that I could be motivated to get stronger and faster without some sort of climactic performance at the end. I am in the process of redefining what fitness and wellness are to me. And I know that I said I would race later this year, but now I just don’t know. My mentality seems to be changing and I’ve decided to just go with the flow. And right now, the flow is leading me to BBG week 8 starting Monday.

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